Crutch

[thongrider]

I used to have you as a crutch
The one I counted on too much
The one who would never let me fall
A vile and evil friend
who would be there till the end
But would also be the ending to it all
I used to think of you a lot
Signed to you all that I'd got
And I knew you'd never give anything back to me
Except for hope when I'd see none
and having someone to lean on
I knew you'd take my hand when all got black to me

I had to use you as a crutch
A comfort I knew I'd never touch
Cuz if I did it'd be the end
I was afraid of your melody
And you were once my enemy
But for years I took you for my friend
You got me to ignore my real worries
You could make everything seem blurry
And I knew you'd be there to catch me when I'd fall
You could take any form or shape
And be part of my great escape
But it was you I was scared of after all

I no longer have you as a crutch
I've learned way too much to make sense of such
to let me get dragged into that nightmare 
But after all the years we shared
often I get new things to be scared of
Trying to find out the right fear
But it's fine, everyone must face you
And no one really can erase you
There's a little plus in your endless minus
You are there quick whenever
We feel like we'll live forever
And ironically it's you who who'll define us